Here it is another September, today happens to be the first day of fall. Hurray! September 8th was our 46th anniversary. It is hard to believe my dear husband and best friend has been gone 33 1/2 months.
Oh how I miss my love every single day. As a fresh widow grief was so ‘raw’, then there’s the ‘widow’s fog’ that lasted for over 2 years for me, then reality really settles in. That’s where I am now.
It’s not easy to get used to. I rely on Jesus daily for His strength to get me through each day. To give me peace, to give me joy in my sorrow.
Knowing my husband is with Jesus is wonderful. He is with Almighty God, that is awesome. I can only imagine how fantastic that must be.
Meanwhile, every day for me is a day of taking one step at a time. Some days are better than others.
Now that cooler weather is coming, I’m thinking of projects I want to do outside and inside. I’ve got some you-tube videos to watch for painting my little cottage. A project that will be done one wall or one section at a time. Prep work will be the worst part.
The journey of widowhood is all about faith. Faith in Jesus for taking care of me. He knows all of my needs better than I do.
We have a crowd of witnesses in heaven who lived by faith and they are cheering us on. We can do it, just as they did, by faith. God is our strength and they know that. We just need to keep our focus on Jesus and not on things of this world. We need to do our best and not sweat the small stuff.
We are to give our worries and fears to Jesus, something we can give Him each day, as many times as we need to. He is longing to take our burdens, He wants us to have His peace. He longs to bless us and does.
He blesses us with beauty, music, scents, laughter, friends, family, colors, good food, changing seasons, His glorious creation, so much to enjoy.
Let us rejoice in the gift of each new day and be glad in it. One day we will be with our loved ones again, and we will all praise Jesus for all that He has done, is doing, and what He will do for each and every one of us.
Be of good courage, all who hope in the Lord.
FlowerLady
This made my heart sad and glad for you. Sad because I know you'll miss your husband dearly til the day you join him in Heaven, glad because you know the One , the only One who can give you comfort when your loss must seem unbearable. Prayers for you.
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautiful written. I could feel your pain but your joy in knowing where your dear husband is. Sending hugs.I You are not alone there are many who are going through the same thing, I know many on here and in my real life. It is a hard unimaginable thing to go through for me to really understand not going through this but your faith will get you through. I truly believe that. Hugs again. B
ReplyDeleteHi Lorraine, I just spotted this blog and thought I'd stop in. I'm glad I did~
ReplyDeleteI too am a widow, I don't know if you knew that. Lost my Alan of 35 years on October 10, 2014. But sometimes it feels like yesterday : (
I have never heard that term before - 'Widows Fog' but I can certainly relate. After 1.5 years I know I still have lots of grieving and lots of growing to do. Sometimes my heart is just broken pieces in my hand. But I can lift those pieces to the Lord and He finds a way to put it back together and pat me on the back and help me to "keep going."
I do hope you received this comment : J It sure helped just to talk for a bit - so thank you Lorraine! I appreciate you~ Karen O AKA Roosterhead Designs