my dear husband went to be with Jesus, His Lord and Maker. How wonderful is that? To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord, instantly.
I still have times of tears, gentle sometimes and heart wrenching sobs other times. But, my faith and heart have been strengthened in my weaknesses by Jesus, God Almighty Himself.
I’ve been reading my little devotional ‘Jesus Calling’ and from God’s own word and I am being fed much that keeps me filled with His love and peace.
Other books have been a great source of help too. I am reading “Postcards from the Widows’ Path” by Ferree Hardy, “The Widow Directed to the Widow’s God” by John Angell James, writings by Octavius Winslow and J.R. Miller. All spiritually uplifting to me.
I continue to ‘putter’ (to busy or occupy oneself in a leisurely, casual manner), in my gardens, in our little cottage and with projects. While I putter I can talk with Jesus, as He is beside me, whether I’m washing dishes, hanging up the laundry, pulling weeds, being creative with needles, hooks, threads and beads. He is my constant, loving companion. He is with me when I get in my van and head out into the traffic of the world as I go about errands or on my way to and from work.
Three months ago today, I was in a real daze, losing my best and dearest friend, the love of my life. I had already been grieving for four months as our life drastically changed that night in August when my husband had those horrific cramps in his neck. That was only the beginning of the end of his life here on earth. As he steadily grew weaker, our life as it had been was put on hold, and as it turns out, it was over. We were unable to work on any more projects together, he became bedridden. But, during those last 4 months together, we prayed, talked, laughed some, cried and I read the Bible out loud. We grew spiritually and we also grew more in love than we had ever been. That was a gift from our heavenly Father, and for that I am ever thankful.
Heaven is more wonderful than we can even imagine, and that’s is where my dear husband is. I can just see him there, all excited and joyous to be with Jesus, his eyes twinkling and that is reason for me to celebrate and get up and go about my daily business each and every day. One day we will be reunited, and until then, I want to live and grow older gracefully in the love and healing presence of Jesus.
May your feel God’s love, peace and strength flowing through and surrounding you in all things.
Be strong and of a good courage, fear not…
for the LORD thy God,
He it is that doth go with thee;
He will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.