"Falling in love is the easy part.
It is quite different from being in love.
If you are blessed,
you fall in love with your spouse again a little bit every day.
Love is a choice,
a decision to love no matter what the day brings.
You are in love because you choose to be in love.
You made a promise, a commitment, to love each other."
Author Unknown


Saturday, March 9, 2013

Three months ago today …

my dear husband went to be with Jesus, His Lord and Maker. How wonderful is that? To be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord, instantly.

I still have times of tears, gentle sometimes and heart wrenching sobs other times. But, my faith and heart have been strengthened in my weaknesses by Jesus, God Almighty Himself.

I’ve been reading my little devotional ‘Jesus Calling’ and from God’s own word and I am being fed much that keeps me filled with His love and peace.

Other books have been a great source of help too. I am reading “Postcards from the Widows’ Path” by Ferree Hardy, “The Widow Directed to the Widow’s God” by John Angell James, writings by Octavius Winslow and J.R. Miller.  All spiritually uplifting to me.

I continue to ‘putter’ (to busy or occupy oneself in a leisurely, casual manner), in my gardens, in our little cottage and with projects. While I putter I can talk with Jesus, as He is beside me, whether I’m washing dishes, hanging up the laundry, pulling weeds, being creative with needles, hooks, threads and beads. He is my constant, loving companion.  He is with me when I get in my van and head out into the traffic of the world as I go about errands or on my way to and from work.

Three months ago today, I was in a real daze, losing my best and dearest friend, the love of my life. I had already been grieving for four months as our life drastically changed that night in August when my husband had those horrific cramps in his neck.  That was only the beginning of the end of his life here on earth. As he steadily grew weaker, our life as it had been was put on hold, and as it turns out, it was over. We were unable to work on any more projects together, he became bedridden. But, during those last 4 months together, we prayed, talked, laughed some, cried and  I read the Bible out loud. We grew spiritually and we also grew more in love than we had ever been.  That was a gift from our heavenly Father, and for that I am ever thankful.

Heaven is more wonderful than we can even imagine, and that’s is where my dear husband is. I can just see him there, all excited and joyous to be with Jesus, his eyes twinkling and that is reason for me to celebrate and get up and go about my daily business each and every day.  One day we will be reunited, and until then, I want to live and grow older gracefully in the love and healing presence of Jesus.

 

May your feel God’s love, peace and strength flowing through and surrounding you in all things.

FlowerLady Lorraine

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Be strong and of a good courage, fear not…

for the LORD thy God,

He it is that doth go with thee;

He will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. 

Deu_31:6

5 comments:

  1. Faith is the most wonderful thing and not shared by a lot of people, but when you do have it, it makes mountains into molehills. My parents had that faith and when my mother left us, leaving my dad utterly bereft and alone.. his faith was such a support to him.. the church that they had attended over 30 years was there for him, and the people he knew were so kind to him. We lived over 100 miles away and saw him as much as we could, and got him to visit us often, but his need was to be with his Rose and so he left a bare year after. My comments here are because your faith utterly intertwines with all that you do, and you are blessed having that faith and the beliefs that you hold. Your darling will be with you again when you leave this earth, and in the meantime, I am so very pleased for you that you are managing to cope at a very very difficult time.. God go with you dear blog friend, Janzi

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  2. It's been a hard journey but you are doing really well. Your relationship with God has grown and been a comfort for you. He is so good. I've read that people that have death experience and then come back don't want to come back so it must be wonderful. Some day we'll all be reunited with our loved ones. Hugs.

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  3. Three months ago today, my heart broke for you dear friend. You are such an inspiration for us all. I can see your faith growing in each entry you write.

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  4. This is such a beautiful post Lorraine...

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  5. Your attitude is so beautiful and your faith is so strong. You glorify the Lord with each sentence you write! Your husband is surely beaming with pride! Thank you for this lovely post today, Lorraine.

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