"Falling in love is the easy part.
It is quite different from being in love.
If you are blessed,
you fall in love with your spouse again a little bit every day.
Love is a choice,
a decision to love no matter what the day brings.
You are in love because you choose to be in love.
You made a promise, a commitment, to love each other."
Author Unknown

Monday, January 13, 2014

With God’s strength ~ I Made it

Good morning ~ It is a new day and I wish to rejoice and be glad in it. It is my choice, no matter what the circumstances. I’m not saying that this choice is easy, some days it is NOT.

9 December 2013 was the first year anniversary of my dear husband and best friends' going home to be with Jesus, our God and Creator. Actually, I was surprised at how peaceful I felt and even joyful, because I ‘know’ where he is.  He is at peace, he is well, he is with God and all the believers who are there, waiting in earnest expectation for God’s next big move. I am waiting too with many, many others down here on earth.

20 December would have been my husband’s 66th birthday, then there was Christmas and New Years,  All I can say is that Jesus IS my strength each and every single day. Yes, I still have times of tears, I miss my husband a LOT.  We did just about everything together.  We were in the middle of projects, most of which are still  waiting for me to decide what to do next.

I work part time, putter in my gardens, work on projects as I can, continue to craft with needle, thread and beads, go to church and my widow’s group meetings. My days seem full, but nights not so full.  I do not watch TV.  The only show we were watching was Survivor, and I haven’t even watched that since seeing the grand finale from spring of last year. I’m living my own ‘survivor’ life, for real.

I have watched movies on you tube, I watch garden shows, and some other things about crafting, watching couples buy their first homes, etc.

I am thankful for my little home and gardens. Thankful that I can still learn to do new things. We are never too old to learn.

Contemporary Christian music really speaks to me, heart and soul.

Reading is one of my big things to do too.

These ‘things’ cannot fill the void left by my dear husbands’ absence, only God can do that, and I talk to Him a lot, in my journal, out loud too, any time day or night. He is right beside me always.

As we go about our lives in this new year of 2014, let us remember the following verse found in Joshua. 1:9 (KJV)


Be strong and of a good courage;

be not afraid,

neither be thou dismayed:

for the LORD thy God is with thee

whithersoever thou goest.


Love, hugs and prayers

and God’s continued blessings

on each and every one of you.

FlowerLady Lorraine


  1. Isaiah 43:1-onward was always my favorite passage for comfort, so I repeat it here, a mish-mash of memory and paraphrasing, if it helps you:

    "Listen to what God says:

    'Do not be afraid--I will comfort you.

    I have called you by name--You are mine.

    When you pass through deep waters, I will be with you.

    When you pass through rivers, they won't sweep you away.

    When you walk through fire, you will not be burned. . . .' "

    Love to you, Lorraine. ♥

  2. Really appreciate your honest posts, Lorraine! With the break up of my marriage I called upon divine assistance regularly who heard my prayers. I daily give him thanks for my lovely lady, Lea as I start a new life with her. God's strength remain with you!

  3. Oh my friend you are so strong. I wish I was closer to you. Right now your area sounds great for our health. Hugs to you. May the Lord lift you up and give you peace.

  4. Hi hon. I'm so happy you're doing okay. Thanks for taking time to leave a comment in My Johnny blog. I'd have been by here much sooner but have spent most of my time trying to get my email straightened out. I hate to imagine how many emails I'll have when this glitch in my computer gets taken care of. Right now I can't send or receive mail. I've taken care of the more serious computer issues, now working on this one. Had to do the others first...they were the most important.
    I think of you often, always with great affection, and pray for you every day.
    Take care. Loved your post, love knowing your journey forward is going smoothly. Mine is too. Just have those times when missing Johnny makes for a really rough day. I know you experience the same thing. Thank you too, for praying for me.
    Love you much.

  5. Bless you my friend! Your trust in the Lord for his strength and guidance is inspiring. It gives me hope that God would be there for me if my husband left for heaven first.

  6. This is an encouraging posting. It's great to know our loved ones are in the arms of the Lord. I enjoyed visiting this wonderful blog. Blessings, Brenda.