It was my first Valentine’s day without my dear husband. I actually did ok during the day, but got a couple of cards from girlfriends in the mail, and another friend had left me a wonderful little devotional tied in a plastic bag, hanging on the iron gate. I saw it there when I came home from work and wondered what on earth it could be. It is just what I need at this time and the way the book is written is just as if Jesus were talking to you directly. The name of the book is ‘Jesus Calling – Enjoying Peace in His Presence’ by Sarah Young. Reading the bit for yesterday and reading the cards from my friends brought on the tears.
I had made myself a lovely dinner, just as I always did for us for holidays, raised my glass of wine in a toast to my dear husband and to Jesus the author and finisher of my faith. I am so thankful for His many blessings, for the many ways he shows me that he cares deeply for me.
This is a whole new way of living life. It’s rough at times, normal others, but always there is the ‘missing’ of someone who had a huge impact on my life. He is the one from whom I learned what love is all about. He added so much sparkle to my life. I miss sharing so many things with him. There was a joy in living that has slipped away, and has to be restored bit by bit and only Jesus can do that. I am learning to trust in him more, loving him more, being strengthened by him.
I will close with these verses from Isaiah 41:10 & 13.
Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed;
for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee;
yea, I will help thee;
yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.
For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand,
saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.
Just think of that,
God holding our right hand.
He will never let go,
He is always with us, forever and ever.