"Falling in love is the easy part.
It is quite different from being in love.
If you are blessed,
you fall in love with your spouse again a little bit every day.
Love is a choice,
a decision to love no matter what the day brings.
You are in love because you choose to be in love.
You made a promise, a commitment, to love each other."
Author Unknown


Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Strength of my heart

 

This morning has been a bit rough, as I’ve been going through Mark’s clothes. I have sobbed and cried out to God to help me and be my strength. I had to take a break after that as it was terribly draining. 

I got out my Bible as I needed some sustenance to get me back on the right track. The more I read, the more my heart calmed.

I then saw Mark’s picture on this blog and the twinkle in his eyes and I smiled. I can hardly wait to get to heaven to see how he *really twinkles.* He is forever young, as I will be one day.

Until then, may I grow daily in God’s merciful, loving kindness, to be the woman he is creating me to be, full of beauty, grace and truth.

I will close with the following verses from Psalms 73:26 & 28 KJV

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My flesh and my heart faileth:

but God is the strength of my heart,

and my portion for ever.

But it is good for me to draw near to God:

I have put my trust in the Lord GOD,

that I may declare all thy works.

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8 comments:

  1. Goodness me, that is such a quiet way to describe what you must have been feeling... no wonder you feel totally wrung out.. I'm sure it would affect most people trying to sort out the belongings of a loved one... and your darling husband at that! You must not over do the trying to carry on bit... you have to allow yourself to grieve whenever it over takes you... You have shown such courage in your blog on dealing with such a raw and recent loss I have been admiring how you have coped.. and of course your faith is so important in coping for you.. so it should be, it is such a wonderful thing to have faith.. treasure all the times you had together, and you will find the hurt less painful as you remember.. Thinking of you, and sending hugs and best wishes from over the pond.. janzi

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  2. I just wanted to be here with you today as you sort Mark's clothes. I knew that would be a rough one. Take your time.

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  3. Please take care, we are all with you.
    Love and Hugs

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  4. I hear you Lorraine, that's a real toughie, the sorting....
    Hugs
    PS: I adored the email.I am already inspired.
    R
    x

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  5. I agree that has to be a tough step to take. Sending hugs your way.

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  6. I had to do that the first week, as we had no where for her items to go, and all her belongings were in the den. I wish I had had more time.It was way too soon, and a terrible day. You will feel better, after it is sorted. Take care of yourself, hugs, Gina

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  7. Oh, I've been gone so long, I did not know. Your tribute here to him is touching, and I can feel your sadness, I'm so so sorry.
    You posted about him being so incredible with tools and woodworking, I know you two had many projects that you can look back on.
    I pray the God grants you His Peace and I pray He gives you strength to do this heartbreaking chore.
    All my love,
    Sissy

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  8. Hi Lorraine..I have not visited in so long..I just began blogging again after 18months..adventures in my garden...and I so enjoyed visiting you in the past, I thought perhaps I would check in on you and I'm so terribly saddened at the news. I can not even imagine the sorrow you must be feeling and my heart goes out to you. You are in prayers and thoughts.

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